Too add to my friend and business partner's previous article, I too have almost given up on sports several times. A few examples of my sports related trauma incidents are:
Colorado losing to Notre Dame in 1989
Chris Webber and the Time Out
Alabama Beating Miami in the
Sugar BowlArkansas losing to UCLA for the National Championship...damn O'Bannon's(basketball)
OU losing to LSU, USC, and Florida all for National Titles (pathetic)
Miami losing to Ohio State in 2002
Memphis losing to Kansas on my birthday for the National Championship
Losing the 4A Oklahoma State Football Championship twice in
high schoolKSU losing to
Texas A&M in the 1998 BIG 12 title game
Any OU loss to Texas
Any Colorado Loss to Nebraska
I have grieved alone for many days and pondered the real meaning of life after every excruciating loss I have endured on my 26 years on this earth. I feel my man, Rich'ard Bod'wah, as we feel the same pain we got through the constant "what ifs" for weeks and weeks after the loss that you were hanging your hat on.
The loss that you needed to be a win, losing is more than a score . It's the amount of shit you talk to "haters" who think that your team could possibly lose, and being the die-hard fan, the idea that "your team" could lose does not cross your mind. Conversely, after fighting tooth and fucking nail as an armchair quarterback for four quarters, you realize that defeat is imminent, you turn off your phone first, then your tv, and begrudgingly admit defeat.
As a real fan you cant hide from the pain mentally, and physically your drained.
Skip Bayless continues to rub
salt in the wound the next day as
ESPN continually makes you relive the agony of yet another crucial loss with countless episodes of the same highlights from last night that they claim to be a "live" show. Text messages that let you know you're a loser and not a winner continually make their mark on a phone you wish didn't exist.
Facebook statuses are updated, to further the mental agony that is the risk of being a real fan.
How do I live? How do I breathe after a loss that has taken everything from me? Who knows? Time heals all wounds I was told, so I keep fighting and make amends with the sports skeletons in my closet. There will be another season, there will be bigger games, life will move on. "I can't stop wont stop" in the words of Diddy. I have lost many battles, but I will never lose the War! Boadu my friend, hang in there your win will come and your gratification will make itself known. Every sports fan has a manifest destiny. My time will come and so will yours Mr. Ricky Writer, keep the faith dear friend as will I.
The Emotional One,
CLAUDE JR.